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Not a good impulse decision, though.
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I'm getting to the finish line and it's pretty exciting. I'll be finished my last course next week. The second-to-last didn't go quite as well as I would have liked, but I passed, which was what I was looking to do. And now I'm trying to find the motivation to do the last two assignments in my last class, and I haven't been successful. The projects, combined, would be roughly twelve pages and several spreadsheets, along with a WBS and Gantt chart. For ten percent of the overall grade. It just...doesn't make a whole lot of sense to put all that time in it for such a small percentage of my grade.

I'll probably half-ass them both.

I've started the 21 Day Fix and I'm still alive, although my legs didn't want to cooperate with me yesterday. It was a bit rough. But today is a little bit better, and hopefully I'll continue to improve. It was definitely a wake-up call for me, because I didn't realize how woefully out of shape I am. I could barely get through a 30-minute cardio workout the first day. The diet is...a struggle. It's a lot different from what I'm used to and I'm not following it very closely. There are a lot of fruits and starches and...that's just not what I eat.

I'm realizing that I'm actually pretty terrified of gaining the weight back. The thought of changing my diet and possibly putting on a few pounds makes me very anxious. So I'm just trying to make sure that I keep things under control. I don't actually want to lose any weight, I just want to be in better shape. I want to be able to run around the park with my niece and nephew and not get winded, and I want to go biking this summer, and I want to go hiking in the mountains and not have to worry.

And it's funny, after three days I already feel better. Maybe that has to do with just getting started on it and making it happen. I don't know. My Mom and I are actually doing the workouts together whenever possible, because it helps to have someone to whine about it with. And for encouragement, I guess. Haha. But I'm looking forward to the rest of it, because I think it's really going to help.

And then we get back from Orlando and I'll be back at yoga, and that'll be excellent. 30-day challenge, maybe. It's probably about time for me to give it a try. It's a major time commitment, yes, but I think I might just change my work schedule so that I can get to the classes a bit easier. Or I could take the later class instead. It would give me a chance to go home after work. But it seems like a bit of a waste of time when the studio is on my way home. I could try going in the morning but I really just don't see that happening. Leaving home at 5am is not on my list of things I want to do.

I sometimes have these "what's the point" moments, and they've been getting more frequent. I don't like to dwell too much, but...they're there.

I sort of want to get a guinea pig. I know it wouldn't be the best idea. I don't even know why I want one all of a sudden. Well, alright, it's because they make the most awesome little noises and they're fluffy and cute.

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